Dear reader,
I am back at my desk after the so called vacation to my home country. Being away I realised that having time is actually some sort of illusion and now that I am back I have to work harder and don’t waste that precious time. I released my first video from Bulgaria and working on the next one but it’s not the only thing I am working on. It sounds I’ve come changed like after every new year, when we strike for the Gym and then slowly forget about it but I want to believe that’s not the case.
Being in my old reality scared me a little, scared me to the point that I started to doubt myself and my dreams again. What if they are just silly little thoughts in my pink bubble and everyone else is right? At least that answered me one big question – why I haven’t started pursuing artistic career earlier in my life. Now I am more confused than ever but also determined to proof society wrong…or at least that part, I believe thinks I am crazy to chase these wild dreams. The bad thing is that I have such a part in my heart, like some of their words live autonomous live inside my head but still I am going to fight them. How, I don’t know my reader but your support definetely helps.
There are many questions I have to answer to myself but I will begin with “why?” Philosophical ones like – why I have started to draw in a first place, why I want to be an artist? And a concrete ones like – Why a certain video gained views and other didn’t? It’s easy to blame the algorithm, every time you fail and praise your own mind and abilities when you succeed. So this time I will chose one of these to be the reason for my successes and fails – me, my experience and what I’ve learned.
I am going to work now my reader! If you’ve missed my latest video, You can check it out here, after the letter. Don’t forget to stay creative and believe in yourself!
Love,
Radost